Self Esteem

today was just... ho hum. nothing special. kinda crappy day though. my self esteem is at approximately -5. ruff. I also realized that one of my close friends is a really crappy friend that I can't trust with anything. :(

The day started out aweful because I had to be at school at 7:00 to play piano for choir... not very fun... espicially since I was sightreading the WHOLE time... didn't do horrible though! And the whole practice, my friend... lets call him BOB... was saying mean things that made me sad. :(

Then I just have a boatload of homework that I really don't want to do because I'm leaving tomorrow right after school to go camping at Goblin Valley... kinda excited i guess.. :)

And people are just mean to me! My "friend" (the one who is a really crappy friend that I can't trust with anything) called me retarted today! It didn't really hurt my feeling, but then I got thinking about all the weird stuff I do... and what a strange person I am... and my self esteem dropped. GRRR! Oh well. I don't care what people think. And just alot of other stupid things happened that I don't care about...

I'm eating one of my favorite things right now, tomato soup with goldfish! YUM! I don't care if that's weird... its good. so too bad!! Hopefully I'll feel better about this situation tomorrow... :(